Date: Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Time: 5:56 PM

Make sure u read both of the posts I've posted today! One of them is from last night and this one is for today.

Any who I'm going to talk about L.O.V.E. today in honor of Valentines day.. which was (counting on hands) 4 days ago. =.= Well its also in honor of the fact that I seem to be attracting even larger numbers of heart broken peeps then usual.

For some reason people see me as a good confident and advice give when they have romance problems. Don't get me wrong I don't mind handing out advice! Actually I enjoy helping people get through hard times. I just find it interesting that people come to me for advice considering that I don't personally have that much experience in the department. -.-

Everyone one of us is going to experience a one sided "love" at least once in our lives. For one reason or another, the person whom towards you've developed feelings for doesn't feel the same way, or your in a position where you have to shield your feelings from them.

It's not usually real love of course ... and by real love I mean unselfish, void of ego love ... but that doesn't mean its not painful. On a physiological level especially its more painful, because of the involvement of the ego. You feel victimized or unwanted, and over all depressed that this person, who ever they may be, doesn't want you. And its this fear of being alone and unwanted that drives us even deeper into depression.

We are afraid of being... left on the shelf. Society has programed us in such away that we have deemed in necessary to be with someone to be "complete". To feel fulfilled. And if we can't achieve that then.. basically we are losers.

I think that kind of thinking is wrong. Instead of searching for someone to "complete" you... complete yourself. It sounds very unromantic to put it like that -.- because usually you hear about how lovers "need" each other. "I translate that as my ego needs you. I need someone to boost up my low self esteem and baby you sure are good at it." <-- now that sure does sound romantic. How bout this?---> " I need you so long as well... I need you".

So long as you "feel" loved... you feel love for that person. And when that person doesn't "feel" love for you... your ego is hurt. And you feel depressed. -.- ... this sounds very depressing actually. This whole post does. -.-

I can't tell you what love is, I've never really loved someone. But I know what love isn't,and I think thats a step in the right direction. When I find out what love really is, I'll blog about it. Lol