Date: Sunday, March 30, 2008
Time: 6:32 PM

I feel awful!! Last night I couldn't sleep until 4.30 am -.- and then I tossed and turned and woke up constantly until 8am. No idea why I was so restless... but I think it has something to do with Rule Number 1! It's like a delayed reaction to that movie... because I was sitting on my bed I started to think about the movie and suddenly got a little paranoid.

What if... for some reason... =.= there was a ghost in the room with me and Iida <-- my though pattern. Then I though "but thats ok!! Even if its in here its friendly...." but my sleepy brain had to fire back with "Yeah right!! Since when are ghosts friendly?... xept for Casper the friendly ghost" At which point I started to over analyze the possible existence of a ghost in my room and it was at the exact moment the I though "If this was a horror movie.... Iida would slowly rise up while my back was turned possessed by a thing of evil..." then Iida =.= rose up while my back was turned. She was really sleepy ... and I'm not sure she even remembers it but boy did it freak me out!! I sorta did a shuffle back ward so she wouldn't see me. And she said my name and something like "It's to late" and then feel asleep.

.... If it had been 12 pm or even 1 am I would have been like "Aww =D" but due to my brain's tiredness.... I was more "Its a sign!! @.@" A sign that there was some sort of strange being in the room! But then =.= I feel alseep. I think my last thought was "K the ghost can kill me in my sleep... just so long as it doesn't wake me up" =.=

You see... I'm not worried of actual ghosts... I'm just afraid of finding myself in a horror movie like setting and having a heart attack from the shock. Although really I should be a horror movie screen writer because I think of the most awesome places for ghosts and serial killers and the works to jump out from. Its the price of having an over active imagination.

Er don't think me paranoid =.= this is just what happens when I've been sleeping bad all week, have a bird in the bathroom making strange noises, a cat thats scratching at my door and making weird noises, and for some reason can hear footsteps. o_o

Date: Saturday, March 29, 2008
Time: 7:55 PM

I haven't blogged for ages =.= I wish I had a good excuse for not blogging but... I don't. I've just been to lazy @.@

Hmm let's go over my week so far so on Thursday I had something... which I now forget o_o. Friday I had voice class and piano =D a very music filled Friday. And Friday was also Bel's bday!!

Then on Saturday I meet Xinyi at Hougang and we went to Popular to look at some stuff. And then we headed to SBM to discuss our plans for ..... o_o (secret secret) but alas the door was shut and =.= vicky pear xb hungry and forest were there sleeping in front of the door -.-. Then they asked if we had a key @.@ Do i look like i carry the key to sbm on me!?

Then xinyi and i sat down and discussed the ..... o_o (secret secret) Finally we we're let into SBM and me and xinyi went upstairs I tried to play the blue guitar (which didn't go over to well -.-) and then we went to eat. =D But xinyi's sense of direction (aww =D dont worry) lead us in the wrong direction -.-. But eventually we found the prata shop =D.

Then we headed back to SBM so I could practice with yh. =D We're going to be performing Torn, That's when i love you, and =.= ehi passiko. Then after sharing some of us went to celebrate Bel's bday!! At Fish and Co. the glass house one. =D Then after that we went to eat smelly tofu which is.... overrated!!!!!!!! =D K Thats all Ciao!

Date: Tuesday, March 25, 2008
Time: 10:54 PM

Currently im having a fun time torturing the aircon repair ppl =D how?? because i told them the nearest plug was in mine and iidas bathroom hohoho the poor guy he really didnt want to go in there cause well.... a girls bathroom is very different from a guys bathroom and houses things that guys bathrooms dont. Right now there cleaning out the aircon which will hopefully make it work again!!! *fingers crossed* Other wise I'll have to spend another night on the couch =.= Not fun.

Er... I seem to really be getting back into the Maple story swing of things. But I havent leveled yet :c 30 more percent to go!!! So wish me luck!

Date:
Time: 6:19 PM

er thats right I stole some Maroon 5 lyrics for my title why?? because they seem to fit what my blog post is about =.= My spinning head. Last night I was happily taking my dishes to the kitchen sink when BAM Iida opened the kitchen cabinet above the sink and hit me with it! Not on purpose =.= she wasnt watching what she was doing but believe me she opened that thing fast and the blow to my fore head was very very painful!!

I don't have a bruise =D but it still hurts today :c Also in other news the aircon in my room has broken.... again. That thing just cant keep running smoothly!! It's always either dripping water or not cooling.. last night it wasn't cooling. =.= The room eventually got so hot that I woke up at 1.20 and taking my pillow and my blanket (for some reason I can't sleep without a blanket no matter how hot it is) and headed upstairs to the living room.... You see we have an aircon up there that blows air straight at the couch so =.= I turned that aircon super low and sleep on said couch to keep cool. Then at 7.10 or so my dad work up and went into his office are realizing I'd be forced to move anyways I switched off the con and creep downstairs and back into bed (which was obviously still hot!)

The ends result is that I look super tiered today and was actually so sleepy that I put the milk where the cups are suppose to go instead of in the fridge where it belongs. =.=

Date:
Time: 4:52 AM

I might as well add some of the pics i took earlier today while trying to wear crazy make up which :c didnt end up showing in the pics!!! so i turned them black and white and suddenly o_o i got these which i like a lot!! but dont really look like me :c hoho the last 2 are for fun!

Date:
Time: 4:25 AM

k apprently my last post wasnt image heavy so here are some more!!

Jan's bday last year.
Thats me hair on the left and James on the right.
Thats my grandpa. =D
The best police officer ever!!!
Gary!!!!

Date: Monday, March 24, 2008
Time: 5:58 PM

hahaha!! today I came across a cd with a bunch of older photos from last year and last last year. hoho thought id share =D o_o also some others but im not going to post them for now


K this is something I had to draw for art class a few years back =.= no its not someone i know its a copy of a picture by a famous artist, but its drawn by hand and is NOT traced!!

Once upon a time I wanted to be a fashion designer.... no the waist is not that thin =.= its a cut out!!
Another dress I designed back in the day. This one I designed for iida I think...
Awww =D Oscar was suppose to be Robin Hood but he got stage fright before the contest. :c
Oscar =D by a turtle pond.
The Kitten when he was .... a kitten.
Aww =D the cat even younger.
The cat... still young.
Jan being made into a merman/woman.

Another picture I drew (by hand =.= ppl always ask so its best to just say it out there) again I looked a picture and then drew it by hand the proof? one leg is a bit to big =D

Date: Sunday, March 23, 2008
Time: 9:56 PM

Yesterday Iida, Jan, and me went to see Vantage Point. =.= Well it was exciting, as in my heart was beating a bit faster and I was doing my trade mark "this is an exciting movie" move ( aka my hands were somewhere near my face =.=). The storyline was... well how to explain... basically the whole different points of view thing works sometimes and this time it didn't really.. -.-. But enough about the movie!!

What I want to blog about is what happened after the movie. It was quite late when we finally headed home around 9.30 + and I was feeling tired. Thats when I saw him.... and old uncle with his arms all the way inside of a trash bin. You know the kind those big old green ones one the side of the street. Well... that wasn't so strange... it was what he pulled out of the trash can that made me do a double take.

He pulled out a ...... golden Buddha statue. o__o Er... I don't know if there is some sort of protocol you should follow concerning the throwing away of Buddha statues... but I'm pretty certain you don't just throw them away in the dumpster like that! But it was what the man did after that ... which I found funny.

He started to smell (yes smell with his nose) the statue. 0_0 He just stuck his nose right up to it and smelled. At first I thought I was seeing things so I turned to Iida and asked "Iida... did that man just pull a Buddha statue out of the trash?..." and Iida replied back, "Yup... and then he smelled it." Then there was silence for a little while and I finally said " I am SO going to blog about this!!"

Date: Saturday, March 22, 2008
Time: 6:07 PM

I can no longer tell ppl of for not blogging!! -.- It's been quite a while since my last post. I kept coming onto blogger writing half a post and then getting distracted by something =.= resulting in my not finish the post and then being to tired to finish the post then saying "ill finish it tomorrow" and walking off.............. did that make any sense??

It's been a rainy week.... meaning I've been feeling a bit down. :c Darn rainy weather!! You mess up my brain! In good news =D I might get to skip my level 6 practical piano exam and move right onto level 7 !! Why? Because thanks to piano being in my room my practice has gone up 10 fold and .... I'm actually learning my pieces. =.=

Also....( thinking of that else happened...) also..... er thats about it. -.- Brb =D I have maplesea open and my character mana should now have gone up.

Back =D..... er... yes thats right i play.... maplesea. -.- But before you assume I'm some sort of amazing player with level 100+ character let me just say.... -.- im a level 40. Techically speaking I've had my account for a year but I only really played for 6 months and then took a 6 month break and just yesterday did I re-download the client. I'm not addicted to maple sea... I find it a hard game to get addicted TO so... -.- I wont be reaching level 41 anytime soon.

I've been thinking about if I should make my blog more serious.... something thats actually has some value. Currently the only comments I get about my blog tend to be "@.@" and ".....its .. interesting?" -.- Not exactly the most exciting comments you can get about your writing. Well at least if I get comments it means ppl are reading my blog.. which means I'm doing something right! I'm afraid that if each one of my posts is serious... I'll scare ppl away. = . = Hmm.. I guess I'll have to stick to a few serious posts here and there.... and those of you with super serious blogs (you shall go un-named) add some spice!!! Spice being a dash of craziness and a hint of insanity.


o_o A sea of maple calls...... hasta la vista!

Date: Tuesday, March 18, 2008
Time: 2:37 AM

Hmm one one hand.. I liked it ... on the other... not so much.. =.= Why?? Cause it was scary thats why!? At least Bel was freaked out too so I wasn't all alone. -.-

The movies plot is good ... the ending a surprise to most and the actors very believable. =D Over all it was enjoyable.. in a totally messed up way. =.= K fine I'll admit I liked the movie a lot more because I figured out some aspects of it before they happened... I love to do that ... take guesses at whats going to happen next. -.- Figure out motives... and the analyze the characters actions @.@

It probably means movies are becoming more and more predictable if I'm able to decode the characters next move ... the screen writers are running out of original ideas. Books too... read any mystery book now a days and you can usually figure them out easily. -.-

As for the question of did I or did I not end up sleeping in Oscar's bed the answer is ... no -.-... I wasn't allowed.

Date: Sunday, March 16, 2008
Time: 3:55 AM

Today... was my very first day of work. Yes thats right... I'm now a working woman! YAY! Finally ppl will have to admit I am not as lazy as they think I am!! My days as a slacker are over!.... ok fine -.- now that I've worked a day and felt the anguish of standing for 8 hours ... I secretly ( or not so secretly since I'm sharing it on my blog) long for my slacker hood back.

But then I think about how I earned money today and =D I feel excited again! K basically I work with Bel and Minsi at Marina Mandarin down in the kitchen making... pastries. XD ... k we don't really "make" them more do some simple decorating and put stuff out =.= but its still fun and there's always something to do so you don't get bored.

Also we get to wear those chef outfits XD even the stove top hats (you know the ones!) The only bad part?? =.= We have to stand for the whole time.. that means for 8 hours of torture!! ... for my feet.

Date: Friday, March 14, 2008
Time: 5:48 PM

Ack!! Today is my piano theory exam day! =.= Grade 5. Actually I'm not nervous yet.... but after the exam I'll be pretty high strung -.- and worried I flunked. Mad is also taking the exam =D but we arent sitting near each other =( so sad. There is more then 50 sets between us I think. But oh well =D I might still spot her.

K either tomorrow of Monday Feng KW and me plan to go see Rule No. 1 ... thats right I'm going to watch a horror movie. Shocked?? I know I am! I don't usually watch scary movies =.= K anyways who else wants to join us?? Because I'm thinking the large the group the less scary the movie is ... yeah something like that.

Actually I'll probably be freaked out the night AFTER the movie... but what to do? I can't invite everyone to my house and then say "Ok... I'm going to bed now :D You guys keep an eye out for ghosts." And then fall asleep -.-

Instead poor Oscar will probably have to make room for me in his bed. Er thats right for protection of all things scary in the night I go to .... my 7 year old brother. Why? well 1. hes the only one who doesn't kick (literally) me out of his bed :c and 2. I figure he's so cute no ghosts would harm him and 3. well he's the smallest and takes up the least amount of space in his bed :D

... but er... thats not going to happen because unlike other times this time I'm going to be "cool" and not freak out! After the movie I'll just be like "Puhlease that movie was so boring *rolls eyes* Oscar is more scary" and then go buy an amulet of ebay for 200 dollars which promises to protect me from ghosts.

Either that or some sort of anti ghost spray ...

Any who who ever is interested SMS me =D but after 1pm so I'm not in the piano exam. Ciao Darlings! <--- making changes

Date: Thursday, March 13, 2008
Time: 5:22 PM

Ack I've been so busy (lazy) that I haven't found time to blog! First let me talk about Monday

Monday March 10

I had something Monday morning... but I can't remember what =.= In the evening my parents dragged the whole family down the the bowling ally near my house for some good old fashioned.... family bowling time. Er now... I got put with my parents on the no bumper lane -.- ... I can bowl.. sorta but the whole no bumpers thing? My first time playing without them.

Some how I managed to score a 82 on my first game and 87 on my second game ( Yay!!) I was either going into the gutter =.= or bowling a strike!

Tuesday March 11

I went ice skating. =D Yay! With some SBM peeps. Fun stuff but er =.= worried for some of the guys mental healths... yup... very worried. After the skating everyone went bowling but =( I had to go home to eat so I couldn't join them. (luckily for them!)

Wednesday March 12

I had a make up lesson for voice in the afternoon and dinner at YH house in the evening. =D Fun! But sadly =( I had to leave quite early.

Thursday March 13

Thursday was a good day... I got new shoes!! =D Yay! ..... I have a shoe addiction -.- Actually they weren't my favorite shoes in the whole store... but my favorite pair would have been impossible for me to walk in @.@ Then in the evening Iida and my Mom left for Manila.

Iida has a gymnastics comp this week end =D GO IIDA GO!! I'm sure she'll do great. =) But it means I'm watching the boys @.@

SBM peeps that means I can't make it to sharing this week =( I already have my piano theory exam in the morning ( good luck to everyone else who's taking it!) so my mom says I can't leave the boys alone in the evening as well.

As far as what I have planned today... er take the boys to their activities =.= Juulia Amalie Kar.....t (must protect my identity a bit) ... chauffeur to little boys. Yup thats me...

Date: Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Time: 5:35 PM

Merits and demerits... they aren't just a Buddhist concept. Christians believes in then ... as do many other religious bodies. All believe in the belief that through good deeds "points" are earned and through bad deeds taken away. Both also believe that these points will come to play an important part in their life after death.

In essence, it's the belief that by doing good... you can save up merits so that in your next life (be it in heaven or another realm) you can have things better then you had before. Personally... I've come to believe this kind of thinking leads to problems. Why? Let me explain.

You can not think of merits as ... money. That they are something that can be earned.. and then spent.. and then earned back. It's basically the belief that you can do bad ... so long as its outweighed by the good. Saying to your self that "I've done so much good in my life and will do so much good in my life that.. I can afford to do something bad. "

That's not to say that with one bad deed.. all the good will be forgotten. But with a mentality like the one stated above ... a person can be capable of almost anything. Why?? Because in their minds they believe that once they reach their goal.. the journey there will be forgotten. Any hurt they cause, any rules they broke will be forgotten in the light of the goodness of the final deed. But if we accept this kind of mentality as being appropriate and correct... we have some serious rethinking to do.

We'd have to rethink if the Nazi's were really that bad.. I mean think about it... they just wanted to build a Utopia for their people! If the only thing that matters is the final goal then.. who cares about the Holocaust? Who cares about the 6 million people who died in concentration camps? If the intent is good and the destination good( and who can saying wanting to build a Utopia for your people is bad?) then the method of getting there doesn't matter.

We'd have a bit of a problem if a serial killer had done a lot of community service in his life. "What's a few bodies when this man has spent the last 5 years building houses for the tsunami victims?"

In those kind of situations we can accept that the mentality of "good deeds out weighing the bad" as crazy and obviously not right ... so why doesn't the same apply to smaller bad deeds? Does the good really out weight them as well? It's something to ponder about.

Date: Saturday, March 8, 2008
Time: 4:36 PM

Today I'm going to skip all the serious stuff and go onto the fun why?? Because today my blog is going to act as we a distraction from everything.

First of Xinyi asked about what pieces I'm going to play. =D I'll tell you what songs and then I'll give an update on how I'm doing on them. One piano player to another,

List A- Sonata in F by Casanovas

I like this song quite a bit. =D It's fast, short, and easy to learn. In truth it's my "saver piece". That one song there is no way your not going to be able to learn well enough and get fast enough!
Right now I can already play it at the right temp but... sometimes the last lines of the song have little finger slips. =.=

List B- Prelude in C sharp minor by S. Heller

Currently I'm in love with this song =.= I was actually not going to choose it because its quite difficult and I was worried I wouldn't be able to pick it... but then I liked it so much I decided to learn it my self... one thing lead to another and I practiced so much that I picked up the first 1 and a half pages in only a few days ( an amazing achievement for me) so my teacher ( who I think was a bit shocked) said =D Go ahead and pick this one! Its more exciting then the other. S0 true.... alright anyways. I've only been learning this one for... a week now but I have the first page and a half down at the right tempo and am working on getting the rest of the second page up to speed. =D Driving everyone crazy with this song I think.

List C- Valse: No. 6 by Prokofiev

Alright obviously this one is walts. -.- It's also not in the little book ABRSM sells called "Selected Piano Exam Pieces". Most people just pick from said little book but... =.= I don't like any of the other List C songs.. I thought I liked Rumba Toccata a while back but... after a while you realize its actually 1. easy and 2. a bit boring. So what I did instead was pick a song from the alternative pieces list that ABRSM offers. Thats right there are actually 6 song choices per list. I haven't gotten the sheet music for this one yet but it sounds like fun =D It's not overly fast (The slowest of my pieces) but its a bit jumpy which might be problematic. Hoping to go out and buy the sheet music for it today! Yay!

Ciao Fever is catching on with a vengeance. o_o I want to be original so..... Au Revoir (Goodbye for now)!!

Date: Friday, March 7, 2008
Time: 4:30 PM

*rubs eyes* I'm still a bit sleepy =.= so fingers crossed this entry makes any kind of sense.

Yesterday I had piano. =D I'm back to my old timing of 2pm now. (yay! i get the good piano) I haven't been able to play the actual piano a lot lately because I've been preparing for my level 5 theory exam. @.@ It's next weeks Sat... so if I look flustered during PTF and sharing its because I'm worried I flunked the exam. =D Anyways I've also finalized which songs I'm going to be playing for my practical exam .. which will hopefully be in August.

And... I've improved a lot in my playing since last year!!!! Never in all the years that I've played paino have I improved this much so fast o_o Moving my piano into my room was a good move! I'm practicing at least an hour a day now =D and it shows! Wonderful feeling to see so much improvement! There is however a slight chance I wont be able to take exam (grade 6) =( if my theory exam score doesn't come fast enough! Ack! Of well.. if it doesn't it doesn't =.=

Yesterday I also meet up with Jia Yi and Kaiwen after my class to go to the ACM ... again. But before I meet them I walked along the river for a bit.... o_o I loved it. There was a light breeze and the little boats were going up and down the river... it reminded me of being on vacation in Europe. I sat down for a bit and caught up on some of my piano theory. Very relaxing =]

After ACM Kaiwen went LANing, Jia Yi to meet her tutor and me home. =.= And straight to the piano to practice. =D Oooh that reminds me... the electricity at Funan went off... and the little room I was playing in went pitch black during my class o_o quite scary.. I actually wanted to try playing in the dark... but then i changed my mind. =.= Just in case I couldn't manage it.

And now chapter 4 of An MRT Story-based on true events

Chapter 4-

The plan that Bella and I came up with was rather simple .... seduce the male models! With our amazingly good looks it would obviously be impossible for them to resist us. "...Shouldn't we change into something as little more.... seductive then what we're wearing??" Bella asked me. Obviously the girl had never seduced supermodels before.

"Bella..Bella... If we change into something more seductive they'll think we're out of their league!" I replied, "No... what we're wearing will do fine." Grabbing her my the hand I began to drag her out of the Deli France as I continued, "Scratch going to the SSS (Singapore Secret Service) building... we need to get this plan into action now!"

Stepping outside the terminal I flagged down cab and pushed Bella in, turning to the taxi driver I shouted gleefully "Taxi! Take us to the nearest fashion show!"

Date: Thursday, March 6, 2008
Time: 5:16 PM

I think alot of SBM people have been confused about what the post titled "self" was about. I didn't write it to be directly connected to any internal SBM matter. It was about another conflict in my life. However, that does not mean I'm going to take it down or say that what I wrote was written in a moment of frustration and anger. I meant and still mean every word I wrote. -.-

At the time of writing the blog entry I didn't have a full picture of the situation at hand... so I had no idea of knowing how perfectly what I wrote fit said situation. I wrote about my stand on certain aspects of life we are all bound to encounter... I wrote my values and feelings as I've come to see them over the years. From my reactions to past experiences, and how I've handled them.

Also ... my entry possibly made me sound a bit arrogant and full of my self. To quote my dad "Any one who has a blog... is at least a bit full of them selves". =.= So true. Someone who writes about their day and then expects people to take the time to come and read about it obviously thinks their day is worth reading about. If you didn't think people found your thoughts fascinating... you wouldn't keep a blog. You'd keep a diary. Something private that no eyes except your own ever saw.

I am no more self-less then the next person, no more "good". I am simply a person, human, and unenlightened. I'm bound to make mistakes, bound to do things for selfish reasons, and bound to hurt others through my actions.

In a sense my blog entry makes me a hypocrite. I say "If you lie, if you cheat ... you will have lost my respect for you". Its not an untruth for me to say that... I've lost faith in people before because of lying and cheating. But I have also lied and cheated my self. I've done things to hurt people, done things to "get them back". Lied to cover my own ass. I am no different from anyone else. No "saint among sinners".

But as a Buddhist we strive to not lie. It's one of the precepts that we chant. Eventually we want to be free of this impurity. So we must do out best not to "fall of the wagon" and to remain truthful in out actions and our conduct. And if we can't consider truth a virtue worth having... then do we still reserve the right to call ourselves Buddhist? We can not be Buddhist when we choose and not Buddhist when we don't feel like it anymore.

You either are or you aren't. There is no middle ground, only the middle path which we have chosen to follow. Right? =)

Date: Tuesday, March 4, 2008
Time: 8:40 PM

I woke up at 4 am last night because my mind was suddenly active. Active with the desire to blog.

I kid you not when I say I work up thinking as though I was writing. =.= I was even using backspace and inserting periods and commas into my thoughts. That's how much I enjoy getting my thoughts down on a piece of cyber paper!

Anyways at first I tried to quiet my mind and get back to sleep since ... well it was 4 am, the hour most people usually .. sleep, but it was of no use. At 4.15 I threw in the towel and dragging myself out of bed went to the turn my comp on so I could write write write.

As I watched the comp screen turn on I noticed something was strange ... After 5 years of dependable service ... my comp had finally decided to rebel. =.= Thats right ... my comp was broken and I was faced with the black screen of death and a few lines telling me to insert the reboot cd translation?? it was telling me my comp (and me) were done for.

I switched my comp back off and crawled back into bed ..... and fell asleep . =.= Like I've said before.... I don't function when I'm sleepy. After falling asleep I had a very strange dream... I won't go into details but I will say that the dream was what happened after I crawled back into bed... and it obviously involved my comp getting fixed and me saving the world.

So I woke up in the morning thinking "Wow... some parts of that dream felt really real!! Especially the comp breaking part..." and went to turn on my comp. Looking at the black screen and the little message... I was shocked. Either 1. I had dreamt the future or 2. ... the comp breaking part wasn't a dream.

As much as the thought of me being able to see the future amused me ... I was eventually forced to admit I probably just woke up at night and had (sadly) no physic powers. After that I went to find Jan so he could come fix my comp. -.-

You tell me =.= I really don't know the exact reason... It was most likely a virus though.

How did the virus get on your comp?
.... =.= I have skills... actually getting a virus doesn't require any skills.. I probably got it while downloading a picture or a paint brush for photo shop.

Are you depressed?
Yes a bit.. I keep thinking of all the stuff I'll never see again. But at least my comp still works and =.= its a lot fast now that it has such a clear hard disk.

Why in the world are you writing a FAQ section?
.... er 0_0 not sure.. I thought it would be something different. As far as I know no one else who's blog I read has one.

Date: Monday, March 3, 2008
Time: 5:17 PM

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The word you does not refer to anyone specific. =.= Its just the style I wanted to write this in. Consider this a look into the inner workings of Juulia.

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I love peace ... peace of mind, heart, and body. I want everything to be balanced.

I hate conflict and war ... for when I look upon it I don't see the angry expressions or hear the bitter words. What I see is humanity stripped to its ugly core ... and realize that at the end of the
day I am no different. I too come from the same mold, and share the same impurities.


I value respect ... for one mistake and you loose it. If you lie, if you cheat, and if you try to manipulate me I will still smile at you, but you will have lost my respect for you. And my respect is not something you can re-earn, forgiveness?... yes I can forgive. But forget? Never.


I try to place ... others above my self. But not to a point where I am willing to disregard my own values and morals to please or favor another. My thoughts can not be swayed by people ... you can tell me "Do this" "Say that" and I'll smile and nod listen to your every word. But I think for my self, and if what you ask or say makes no sense... I will do what "I" feel is right.

I trust ... very few people. Life has taught me very few people are worth trusting. And even the people whom I do trust I do not trust blindly. Never forget that I do not follow you... I simply have choose to walk with you for the time being.

I feel loyalty ... is a rather twisted concept. What is loyalty?? I see it as being the same as respect. Loyalty can not be the same as "owing someone". True loyalty can not be purchased in that way.


I can ... never pick sides. Because I can see both sides of the story. I hear a story from two different angles and then base "my" opinion... and usual can not say "They are in the wrong, They are in the right" only "I can understand why both feel and act this way"

I love quotes ... the words of people who lived and learned long before I did, speaking to me through a sentence or two about some of life's mysteries.

Above all ... I know my self. =)

Andre Gide:

One doesn't discover new lands without consenting to lose sight of the shore for a very long time.

Mark Twain:

Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.

Frederick Douglass:

I prefer to be true to myself, even at the hazard of incurring the ridicule of others, rather than to be false, and to incur my own abhorrence.

Joan Didion:

To free us from the expectations of others, to give us back to ourselves--there lies the great, singular power of self-respect.

Ralph Waldo Emerson:

Whatever games are played with us, we must play no games with ourselves.

Date: Sunday, March 2, 2008
Time: 5:18 PM

Here's the deal. 0_0 I loath math with a vengeance.... but =.= I sorta have to become a math genius in 3 months before I have my exams. I'm doooomed. Anyone good at math and can help me??? :c Pretty please. I learn fast I just get so bored while learning that my mind wanders =.= ...

I'm very serious about the requiring help thing. So if anyone is up for helping me please let me know =.= Thank you Thank you

K =D Today I'm going to write the third chapter of An MRT Story- Based on True Events. Apparently some ppl are confused by the title.... don't worry you'll find out soon why its called that right Bel??

Btw neither Bel or I have obsessions with male models =.= ... it just sorta happened that Alfranzo G's sons were models... it couldn't be helped. 0_0

Chapter 3-

My plan, as I explained to Bella, was really rather simple. Sitting down at the Deli France at the Airport I pulled out the file containing the information on Alfranzo G. "These.." I said pulling out two pictures, "Are Alfranzo G's sons." Bella look at me with a puzzled look but when he eyes fell on the pictures of the two men she smiled. "I think I know where your going with this.." she said looking down at the two pictures.


There names were Antonio (top pic) and Dimitre (bottom pic). Both of them were success full Russian male models and both... were soon to fall under our spells.

Chapter 4-

Coming Soon

Date: Saturday, March 1, 2008
Time: 6:02 PM

Since i posted my last post in the morning I didn't talk a lot about my Friday =.= so here is an account of my Friday =D.

Fridays I have piano. =D After my piano lesson I rushed down the Plaza Sing to meet my mom to get some money because.. =D I was meeting Hwee, Michelle ( and it turns out Lawrence) at the Asian Civilizations Museum to go check out the space we'd be chanting in on Saturday. The exhibit has been set up very nicely and it feels very calming when your in it. =) Exactly what the space around a Buddha relic should feel like.

After that we went to eat. XD The food at the restaurant was very good. 0_0 and Hwee ordered a lot of food. but =D like said the good was very good so I didn't mind! Then it was time to go home and 0_0 dye my hair .... it was suppose to be really dark when we were done but =.= it still sorta blonde!!!!!

SOoo.. no one on Sat even noticed =.= so disappointing ... maybe its a sign that I shouldn't go against nature. 0_0 Eh I still want to dye it darker.. I'll try again! Anyways after the exhibit we split up into houses =D and headed off to eat. Sariputta went to New York New York ( with xinyi goining us later). Quite good. I especially liked the veggie pasta. And then =D Mich said that we could take the money out of the house fund which meant I had money left over. (Always a good thing)

After that we went to the Esplande Music Library and looked around a bit.... and somehow I became obsessed with Romanians (please as someone else about this =.= i wont recount it ) then we walked to Marina Square where we looked for a present for Xinyi's brother. 0_0 at this point Raymond texted me and and asked if I wanted to go LANing.

It was torn moment for me.... LANing... or shopping ( well window shopping). In the end the LANing won and I waved good bye to Xinyi, Coburn, Bel, and YinHong. Then I walked away from them... then in the toilet I ran into Cherie and Clorine. :c and found out about the missing cell.

Then I meet up with my brother at Paya Leba MRT station and we made our way to the LAN place. =.= I had to switch my sim card into his phone at this point because my own cell was dying.

At LAN I had my first kill =D Yay! Jan was very good.. hes been playing PvP for so long I think he can pick up any one on one game now. 0_0 He's the recovering WoW addict. And =D I think I've improved a bit. I'm certain I had 2 kills during the game but I think the second may have been chance. =D I got a few assists. Yes!

We headed home after two games and upon reaching home and getting into my home clothes ( thats right I have home clothes... usually my PJs.) And watched Things We Lost in the Fire. I like how they ended that movie... they left things uncertain which is exactly how life is.

Hmm I was going to write the 3rd chapter of An MRT Story- based on true events... but this post is already quite long so =D I'll write it later. Ciao!