Date:
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Time: 11:43 PM
You
It doesn't seem like anything more than a dream now.. the events of so long ago. Or may be a night mare considering how things turned out. A fading memory that I both cling to and want to escape at the same time. I saw the signs ... I always do. But because I didn't want to face reality I shut my eyes, looked away and pretended it wasn't happening.
You are... and your are not. Forgotten yet at the same time unforgettable. Forgiven? Maybe.. sometimes I think you are other times I think you aren't. Did I love you? No ... I've never been in love. Did I even like you? Maybe at first... I'll admit that now... Sounds a bit like a movie doesn't it? But reality is much cruller then movies.. in movies everything is over within 2 hours.
Do I regret anything? I regret not being able to be more mature... but I was young.. I still
am young. But the actual events? No.. I don't regret what happened... not anymore. I've accepted its over.. that I can't go back in time to before everything. So I'm letting go slowly... one day at a time.
I bet your wondering who 'you' is...you is a lot of people.. different people over many years. Past boyfriends? Maybe... or it could be friends. All the people who have caused me pain ... they are 'you'.
